Hidden

Tamyra Terrell

I hide my emotions to avoid questions and mental breakdowns from people surrounded by me  

I hide my depression to avoid the  judgemental and non understandable world so instead I take both my emotions and depression and decide to flee

I sit in my room full of darkness trapped by the demons while they whisper negative things into my ear about me wondering when they would let me be free 

When my mom comes into my room to check up on me I quickly wipe my tears and sit up with glee!

It’s hard wearing mask pretending to be something you don’t want to be 

But I have to wear a mask because  when you are surrounded by happy people with beautiful souls unlike your own so it’s the best way to hide my sadness you know!

Having depression feels like you are walking into a deep pile of snow!no matter how much you try to pull yourself out of it you always seem to get stuck and now you are just walking slow

Music fights away the pain along with journaling and talking to god does too. I use these things as a medicine.

Every Time someone asks me how I’m doing I lie and say I’m straight and for a whole day my heart goes dead like a skeleton!

I have a dream like Martin Luther King hoping that my happiness comes to me. But this is a nightmare that I cannot believe.

Hiding everything just feels like a pressure on me!